I hope I'm stating the obvious, but you misspelled "absence" in your drawings!
It's probably a good idea to run any word you want to inject into your skin through a spell check first. And then decide against a lettering backpiece.
Looks like you're in the stage that comes after the "I think I want a tattoo" phase: "Now need to find something with meaning". Obviously, words have the most accessible meanings.
Wait till you're over that, and then let someone draw something beautiful for you. How it looks is what matters.