:( sorry for that,I know what that is about,I have way too much experience there,I lost my mom,dad,& grandfather to cancer years ago.
fucked up part is I am going in for my 50+ colonoscopy in 3 weeks,problem is,my dad died from colon cancer :( it is weighing heavy on my head right now,I kind of don't want to know the results.
I am pretty scared,I was supposed to have it done when I turned 50,but from fear I have procrastinated til now,I'm 56 now and my doctor says I need to get ti done.
I really don't want to confirm the inevitable,"catch it early" ? really ? why ? so they can extend the agony for another year ? no treatments seem to work,I kind of don't want to go to get the screening,
sorry to be such a bummer,I know that's a too much information kinda thing,but I am scared and it's fucked up to constantly think about.
but ! on the bright side,with all my tattoos at least I'm going out looking great ! LOL